transition

i've noticed many changes in myself these past few years.
yet it seems this past few months i've changed more than i ever believed i would.
it all started when my friend mitchelle casually said to me, "you're different now than you were last week. i just thought you should know."
i hadn't noticed until she said that.
i mean, i felt different, but didn't think it reflected.
i don't know exactly how this change came about, but it came.

maybe it was the book i finished reading?
it really spoke to me.
maybe it was the the people i started talking to?
they've made me realize that i don't like being around the same people all the time.
maybe it was just that i came to self-actualization?
whatever that means.

i'd like to think i've overcome my shyness
i recently did an presentation in front of the class without freaking out, it was just natural. i wouldn't have been able to do that 9 months ago. it was nice.

i've also recently began forming opinions on matters.
i trust you, so i wouldn't admit this to just anyone, but until a few months ago, i didn't have many opinions on many things.
i felt kind of lost in a way.
i think i cared too much of what other people thought and feared giving a wrong answer and engaging in an argument.
i now look forward to it.
except i still don't like arguing, or debating for that matter, but i have been resilient in getting my point across. (resilient wasn't the right word to use, still i feel like it belongs there.)

oh, and my writing has changed too. i attribute that to this blog, it's a good change though.

...i can't think of any more changes at the moment. believe me they're there.

everything is in flux.
my stages are unfolding seamlessly.
i am an ever-changing self-portrait.