Ava Karerina

I like my full name.
They are nice names.
They are very Hispanic.
Very fitting.
Very flowy.
However.
(Yes, a period/dot/long pause not a coma/dot with a tail/short pause)
I wish I could change my name sometimes.
There are many beautiful names.
Names that fit me better sometimes.
Names that I wish I could call myself.
I actually have a mental list.
My two favorites names:
Ava
Thea
and combination of those and others.
Like
Ava Louise
Thea Marie
Ava Karerina
Thea Elena
I also like Christian and Noah or Zoe.
Except not pronouced "so" but "zo-eh".
I like that better.
It sounds better.
It's like the name David.
I hate the English pronunciation.
The Spanish pronunciation sounds prettier, poetic.
Better.
Like the name Laura.
The English pronunciation is ugly.
Very.
I like unisex names.
Like Christian, Noah, Chris.
It makes people confused.
Awkward moments can come out.
I use to hate nicknames.
Like Alex or Kathy or Sam.
I hated the fact that people shortened their names.
It bothered me deeply.
Alexandra or Alexander is better than Alex.
Katherine sounds royal, Kathy doesn't.
Samantha, well, OK so Sam is better than Samantha.
But not better than Samuel.
Either way, I used to hate them.
Now I don't.
I got over that.
It made me a little bit freer.
So I wish I could change my name.
Right now I want to be
Ava Karerina.