word association.

what's in my best interest. relaxed day to day of the pacific northwest meets the buzzing of east coast urgency. emergency--when do you decide to go see a doctor. the pain is going away though. the last one i saw told me i wasn't ready but commended me for waiting. patiently waiting, waiting, waiting. this morning i took a walk with a boy i babysit waiting for mom to come home. home holds such a transient meaning for me. right now it feels like here but who knows where the next few months will take me. life is full of exciting/scary as fuck choices. anxiety arises in strange contexts. the retrospective kind being the worst. i still remember that time my book project fell apart in front of the seventh grade classroom. all things fall apart, that was a book. i told him about it last night. we laid there for hours. what's the difference between laziness and comfort.