Getting Schooled

Well, I'm making this blog my bitch.
Oh no! You say.
Profanity!
Oh but isn't this supposed to be a family oriented blog?!
Well, let me tell you, my dear reader, that I have no idea where you got that from.
So, as I was saying, I'm making this blog my bitch.
At least for today.
I have yet to meet a boy/man that I feel any type of attraction to.
At least long lasting.
Yes, I've had little crushes.
Some have been for a long time.
This was only because I never really got to know the guy.
I get really bored VERY fast.
Speedy freaking Gonzalez fast.
I don't know why.
In recent times, there has been a few guys.
One was Venezuelan and fucking annoying.
Yes, the curse word is necessary.
It emphasizes the annoyingness.
He is good looking but man, I can't stand more than 5 minutes with him.
Then, there's my friend that I met at a conference.
Great body.
OK face.
But so boring.
We have nothing in common but our major.
Plus, he's been my college frustration.
He shows a LIL' bit of interest and then, KAPOW! He runs away.
No.
He needs to not run away.
It wouldn't b anything serious.
I couldn't deal with serious with him.
Anyway.
My other friend.
Physically? Meh.
Personality? AWESOME.
Just. Awesome.
He has a girlfriend though.
Stops our friendship from growing.
I hate it.
So much.
Whatever.
So that's about...OH WAIT.
WOW.
I was forgetting my other friend.
Oh, wow.
I guess not much of a friend if I was forgetting him.
You see, I met him at a party.
Cute enough.
Flirty.
Started talking and getting to know each other.
Dates, hanging out.
I thought it would go somewhere.
But then, I realized that there was something in his personality that just...stopped me from liking him completely.
I just stopped liking him.
I thought he understood when I wasn't eager to see him or making plans.
He didn't.
He hasn't.
Even though, I called him "friend" repeatedly.
I told him we are not dating.
I thought he understood.
I'm not so sure.
I'm still figuring that out.
So now I am left with no one.
And I am not happy about this.
I don't know what this makes me.
Never had a boyfriend.
I am abnormal.
I am.
I am and I feel OK with that.
I just.
Hmm, I don't want a boyfriend- don't get me wrong.
Hmm, actually I'm perfectly OK with where I am and what I have in that sense.
Damn, this blog made me its bitch.
I got schooled yo.
Peaceee.