Somewhere over the rainbow

I used to love sleeping.

I mean, just check previous posts. 

Sleeping was like a drug. 

I was addicted. 

I didn't want a 12 step program to battle it. 

It was an addiction I loved. 

This has all changed. 

Sleeping is scary now. 

So very scary. 

I can't sleep like I used to. 

My head thinks and I try to fall asleep but it keeps on thinking. 

And thinking. 

And it hurts. 

Then, when sleep actually comes - I dream. 

I dream weird things.

Things I can't remember. 

But I know aren't peaceful. 

I wake up in the middle of the night. 

Because my head feels clouded. 

It takes me a while to find sleep again. 

I wake up as as if I hadn't slept. 

Tired. 

So very tired.