nu ma nu ma iei

the numa numa song came up on my pandora, and it made me think of:

1. when it was stuck in my head for a week because one of the texts we were reading in hum featured a leader named numa who, coincidentally, threw crazy parties.

2. when my dorm was on our way to the ski-cabin and listening to an old mixtape that was left in our van's cd player, and suddenly the numa numa song (the original romanian version!) comes up and vicky and jess knew alll the words to it and were rocking out next to me. jess usually listens to only classical music...so this was quite a surprise.

love it when songs remind me of things.

edit:

i feel ridiculous having three posts in a row, so i'm just going to add this here.

i woke up at 4 am today to watch love actually. then went back to sleep. i totally had forgotten i did that, but i was in such a great mood for the rest of the day. it was like christmas time.

i love that movie. def one of my favorites.

boysboysboys

long & overdue milkshakes and toy story 3 with my boys tonight.

i shed a few tears, dad passed me tissues and used the word thnankyou (overused phrase my sisters and i used to say instead of "you're welcome").

made my brother cry when i pretended to text his teacher a picture of him in his underwear. baby.

sometimes i want to just fast forward life and be married and have kids. and watch them grow up. i think i'll make a great mom.

speaking of moms, i miss mine. this is the first time (since i was like 10 that she's left me, instead of me leaving her). we spoke with her today and told her we got a surprise "it's brown, had two tails, and it moves". we didn't tell her what it is. it's a ceiling fan, lol.

my neighbor's parents are gone for the weekend, and those slutty girls have had guys coming in and out of the house all day. eww, it's 1:47 am and i'm listening to a convo i don't want to be hearing from my balcony. go inside you guiyz.

i shouldn't judge though, i'm sure people have heard me say things that would make them believe what i'm thinking about these girls.

hmm, maybe not.

i miss waking up next to someone. true story. rebecca once told me that going to bed was the loneliest part of her day, followed by waking up. i remember rolling my eyes and thinking she was simply being her dramatic self. i understand now.

I Just Don't Understand

My parents are complicated.
I don't understand what they want from me.
I just don't.
First, my mother was all "family comes first".
And now she's all "I don't want you there and your dad doesn't either".
This is after I said yes.
I don't understand.
Is she doing it to make me feel better if I don't go?
I said I was.
She says I would be in a bad mood since I am being forced to go.
They aren't forcing me.
I want to go.
I just don't at the same time.
She says we will probably fight.
She says we WILL fight.
Am I so complicated that she prefers me far?
What does this say about me?
Why is this such a big deal?
Why did she have to go and make it such a big deal?
Why couldn't she just let it be?
Understand that if my initial decision of not going was wrong or egotistical or immature, then I will learn through my experience.
Not hers.
That if they can't compare my educational achievements with my brother's, then why compare their relationship with him to our's?
It's not fair.
I love her but she's being so difficult.
I guess our relationship is changing.
I just hope that not for the worse.
God forbid.
I just don't understand.
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a start and a close

it's the start of a new week.
with the exception of sundays, days never feel a certain way to me.
though i know many would beg to differ, mondays are the same as fridays as are tuesdays and saturdays.
sundays are the days that stand out:
they're this liminal time and space between the past and upcoming.
as well as a nice, tranquil present time.
this whole summer has felt like a string of never ending sundays.
between phone calls with friends in different time zones and kite flying and cooking experiments with friends at home, it's been a strangely amazing summer.
full of new experiences, new people.
sundays are a balanced day. a buffer to a hectic week.
in this same way, this summer has added a peaceful time after a busy year.

i made this playlist, it's pretty cliché, but i like it that way.

maybe you'll like it too.

an extra dose of somethin'

These almonds were at my cousin's wedding; the tag says that they each stand for fertility, happiness, health, (life) longevity, and prosperity. I ate all five, and had an extra one from someone else's bunch. My older sister gave me the extra one, she said it was a fertility almond, which she thought was hilarious because she thinks I'm going to be the first one married and the last one with kids. But I'd like to think it was a happiness almond. I think I'm going to try and start posting stuff every Sunday again, this blog makes me happy and I'm just trynn'a give it the lovin' it deserves.

This is funny.

The Intellectual Hippie
You love to help people, but usually find unconventional and subtle ways of doing it. You're fascinated by what the human mind is capable of creating, and seek the world for moments to enrich your life. You love psychology and philosophy. Your respect for all living beings makes you a humble and likeable person, and the biggest reward is when you get to impart your knowledge to those around you.

46% sociable, adventurous, outgoing, energetic
50% sympathetic, modest, compliant, forgiving
38% efficient, organized, thorough, self-disciplined
67% curious, unconventional, imaginative, artistic

My results of a picture personality test.
Whatever that means.