rii: gloomy nights

i understand.

i want to say everyone goes through the same thing, but i know that not everyone does. or rather, not everyone recognizes it because our society has some fucked up idea that it's not ok to be sad--even if that's what you're feeling. bullshit.

it's weird being a psych major when things like this come up because i start thinking about neurochemical circuits and imbalance and release and uptake. then i always have to take a step back and remind myself of the bigger picture. the person behind the brain. the brain is behind the person.

i go through the same ups and downs. my highs are infinitely high, and my lows always feel like i've reached new depths. when i'm at a low, though, i think of the high points and write the sadness away. mint tea and sad novels help too. sometimes a good cry does the trick. that's just me though.

the take home message is that we all deal with "gloomy nights" in different ways. some people ignore the feeling and surround themselves with others. some people take alone time to process and cleanse. at some point you get better at dealing with it all. at some point you begin to wonder if you're having a quarter life crisis. at some point you have to remind yourself that you're not alone in this experience, that this too shall pass, that you have to let go and let God.