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when stressed we regress[ed]

it is reading week, well the end of it now, and it seems that after 1 am our studying ceases to be productive and we begin to get delusional. though as soon as 2 am comes around, we're all hyper-productive and/or ready for bed.
we being the girls on my floor, of course. my family, my sisters, my best friends; and our satellite boys.
so far we have :
-broken out into a Mulan, "be a man" sing along
-discovered that one of the girls, and satellite boys, knows how to play a variety of Disney songs on the piano. Colors of the Wind, anyone? A Whole New World?
-put on make up on each other only to dance around and take it off
-straightened/played with each other's hair
-sent each other pictures of cute animals via fb
-walked to the 24 hour supermarket and bought cheesecake
-tried on crazy costumes from a treasure chest and run around campus, then come back to our living room to make hot cider and a study guide for Biology

i keep wondering why people on campus are so stressed out about finals, then i remember they don't live on my awesomesauce floor.

les français, ils ont le secret de la vie

est-ce que vous savez la difference entre le souvenir et la memoire?
the French have two words for memories–i'm not exactly sure if we have the equivalent of these in english.
le souvenir is a recollection of memories through sensation; you remember the feelings, smells, sights, textures of a memory as if reliving it again. la memoire is more objective in its nature: it is the past recounted from the present perspective, making it less insightful, less personal.
luc told us the most beautiful thing last class. i wish i could have recored it verbatim; it was the combination of his Swiss accent and the depth of what he told us that made it especially impacting.
he advised us to think of the past in each present moment; like if you touch quelque chose with an unusual texture think of all the things with that texture you've touched, and what you were doing, who you were with, and who you were at that point. he continued to tell us to capture the sensations of this present in order to recall them in the future; in order words, take a moment to capture everything around you each day–capture the aura of the time and your views on it.
i thought it was wonderful; though this post doesn't convey how moving his words really were to me.
xx

All Nighters

I do not think I could pull an all nighter.
I just don't think I can.
My twist on an all nighter makes it not an all nighter.
Basically, I go to sleep around 1 and wake up at 6.
I sleep for 5 hours.
It is not too bad.
I mean, I think it is healthier too since I am getting sleep.
I don't run the chance of falling asleep while driving.
Which FYI, is very dangerous.
I guess, all nighters have their advantages.
I don't waste time sleeping.
But then again, sleepipng allows me to recharge my battery and be alert.
I think I will probably have to pull an all nighter sometime in the future.
Though if I continue to be on top of my test dates, I won't need it.
I will have studied ahead making an all nighter unnecessary.
I just hope I will do good in my tests.
I really do.
I need to rest in God.
He willl bring peace, wisdom and intelligence.
'Cause by myself?
Ha.
I say ha.
Not going to happen.

I feel bad sending you so many emails :D

So I should be studying. I really should. But I need a little break. He did explain and I did get it, I think. So how about I've been thinking about legs. I know that's super awkward but I really have been thinking about them. There's this boy with stumpy legs and they bother me. They don't fit his torso which happens to be long. I wonder if he cares. He doesn't seem to because he wears shorts all the time. I wouldn't. I'm glad my legs are proportionate to my torso. I mean, yeah they could be longer but hey, it's not ridiculous awkward. Aren't you glad your legs match your torso? Cause you should be. Oh and also I look at shoes. I don't know why, but I do. I realize that shoes are a little important in my head, I don't know why. It's like legs. You have awesome shoes, just saying. There's this boy that has awesome shoes too, except for the days he wears flip flops. There's this other girl who ALWAYS wears leggings. I wonder why. I mean, yeah they are comfortable but I mean doesn't she want to wear jeans once in a while? Jeans are nice too, plus leggings aren't technically bottoms, so I mean she's basically not wearing pants/bottoms everyday. Also, my physics professor needs to go on a shopping spree in which he buys pants that are his size. I feel he has had the pants that he wears now for a long time, back when he was a smudge skinnier. Now they just sort of fit in in a very odd way. They cut his body into many different shapes. He needs to buy new pants and a new belt. His belt is frayed. It is because I noticed he keeps his keys hanging from his belt and I'm guessing that whenever he uses them he isn't careful not to hurt his belt. So I mean I guess getting a new belt would be dumb since he is going to ruin it super fast. The cute boy didn't show up to class today. It was a little sad because I mean this is the last of the times I am going to see him. I mean, we need a proper goodbye you know? But well, I guess he doesn't realize that, which could be due to the fact that he doesn't know I have a tiny crush in him. Well, whatever. This boy sat next to me. He smelled so good! He ALWAYS smells good. I wonder what he does to smell good all the time. I mean cologne and perfume go away after a while, unless he carries around a bottle of his cologne but I'd rather not think that since I think it is a little awkward. I am also a little addicted to my iPad. It is so sort of amazing to type on a touch screen. No lie. It is actually pretty comfortable. I think I'm going to post this as a blog entry. So I did.