small town life: day 4

this place is so depressing.
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i've met so many girls my age who look 10 years older and have one or two kids by now.

the only redemption is the pool and hot tub at my hotel.

i visited a museum during my lunch break and i was the only one in it. i thought the figurines were going to come to life and kill me.

1 more day 2 go, thank the Lord.

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i would rarely say i pity anyone/anything. but this place just makes me feel so bad about it all. and then i feel bad for feeling that way. being here is not good for me.

small town life.

currently- i'm in a very very very small town (population ~11, 000) at the edge of Oregon and Idaho. i'm here for work. i don't think i'd ever choose to visit this place voluntarily. i'm only here for the week, i arrived on sunday but it feels like an eternity already. my first day at the clinic i am working at here, a lady asked me to have lunch with her. she said, "i'm going to the co-op to get a fresh salad, want to come with?" at this point, i had only seen the town at night and it didn't seem like much so i took her up on the offer and we drove off in her car. she told me she needed to run a few errands first, "okay" i said, i was already in the car. we stopped at the bank, then at the gas station. we used the drive-thru at the bank, and she told me to get out of the car at the gas station. we go inside and i realize: the fresh salad we're getting is from the gas station. don't get me wrong, i have nothing against gas stations or eating at them. but it wasn't what i expected. afterwards we were going to head back to the clinic when she said "let me give you a tour of the land" and i responded with "we only have about 15 minutes", "that's more than enough," she said. so i saw it all, monday the 14th of september between 12:44pm and 12:59pm. now i want to go back home. i'm not about the small town life. being here makes me so so so grateful i grew up in a city. it almost makes me a little sad at the thought of anyone living here for more than a week.

if you wondering, the gas station salad was the best thing i've eaten here so far. i need to go back soon.